Finding

After putting the search on hold for most of this year I am restarting the search and looking into tracing DNA through a test. I have always been curious to find out stuff about my family...you know genes and all that cool stuff. Need prayers :)

My Less than Final Decision

I have decided to postpone the search for my birth family.

I am happy and sad. While I have an insatiable craving to know my roots I have a great understanding that I am only one among millions of adoptees on this planet at one time. To find one's roots as an adoptee can be an honor given to many, a burden to some, but a privledge given to few. Only other adoptees will understand this.

Its time will come.

I have been blessed with so much. What is unique is that I have ties to four families which is pretty damn cool if you ask me!

To be blessed with these circumstances is unique and will be my story for now.. I pray for the gazillion other adoptees out there who struggle now and years from now. Especially those my age. Someday I wish to help them in their search. A favorite quote/ prayer of mine sums up what I think about helping other adoptees..

"Oh God thy sea is very big and and my boat very small."

-Henry

February 2014

I am in contact with a source that hopefully will lead me in a search for my birth family.



I think a lot about what my birth family may look like. (Am I more like my birth father or mother)

I also think a lot about if they think of me on the same level that I think about them.

I also think about if they know or understand the sacrifice that my birth mother made.

I think a lot about what it would be like to meet them.

I think a lot about their past and current circumstances.
 

I most of all pray that I will hear their story someday...

THE NEXT STEP

In addition to the small steps i am taking behind the scenes there is one public one i have decided to take..

In 2005 when I first returned to FANA my file was "declassified" or in other words was made available to me for the first time in 20 years, I was made aware that I had older siblings.

In this day and age when almost everyone is on social media of some sort I find it hard to believe that my siblings never tried to search me out at some point.

I have decided to create a facebook profile with my birth name given to me from Sept. 1984-Fall 1985.

If at any time my biological siblings decide to search me out on facebook( given that they were provided my birth name by my birth mother) they will most likely find me.